Never Walk Alone...A Call to Arms

BOLTON 1-0 MAN UTD

MOWTHEBUCKS!!! WTF?

Never would I have envisaged this scoreline. What made it worse was that Arsenal scored 2 in the last 10mins to win 2-0, and Liverpool too, picked up 3 points. That sucks arh. I'll never hear the last of it from my brother and brother-in-law, who are both Arsenal fans. Goddang double Gooners.

Lazy day for me today. Thought of calling StarHub to shutdown my line (I lost my hp for the uninitiated) and later pay a visit to the Customer Service Centre to claim a new one. Managed to do the former, but for the latter, I need my mom around 'cos my line's in her name. And my mom is in Tasmania arh! Won't be back til 1 December. So for that duration, I've got no phone. Haiz. I feel as if I've lost my member...figuratively speaking...w/o my phone. And I've even bought 2 phones to replace my bro-in-law's and one for myself uh!

I snapped my gf's (read:guitar) string by pulling on her too hard, the first one, the high-E string.
So haiz, I've got to add to my expenditure this month by buying a fresh set of strings. Pokai lo! =(

When you feel that something's wrong
I'll shelter you and keep you warm
I'll never let you walk alone
I loved you when you still hated me
I'm comin and it won't be long
Time to reap what I have sown
Never ever let you walk alone
I know your enemy it once was me

MEGADETH - Never Walk Alone...A Call to Arms

Things Are Looking Up!

Ok, so things might not have been going swimmingly for me. But why the sadness? I should be thankful to God for what I have, and who I have. Alhamdulillah.

First up, the expected backlash didn't come from my bro-in-law. I had finally decided to just be honest with him and face his wrath like a man, but the expected vortex of anger didn't arrive. Alhamdulillah.

I finally decided to heed my OC's advice and see the doctor. So now I'm feeling better after a few rounds of medication, and my voice is coming back. Alhamdulillah.

Went to collect my SGC (School Graduation Certificate) @ MI with Rasyida (Btw, Happy Birthday Syida! 19 eh.or is it 14?) 'I-dun-listen-to-BSB!' teman-ing me. Met a few familiar faces, a few teachers, a few old friends, and a certain...friend (friend?). Went to watch Beowulf, which was a remarkable movie for the effect it had on me (in particular, the monster Grendel's seductive mother, a certain nubile and near-nekkid Angelina Jolie =D). Had mindless, brain-numbing fun, and finally gotten my Megadeth's United Abominations CD. Alhamdulillah.

Reported to my new company, Quebec, and I was told by my CSM that we'll be booking out everyday for the next few weeks as he only wants to work 8-5 'office' hrs. Plus plus, I don't have to come back on Saturdays because HE doesn't want us to work on Sats! Alhamdulillah.

Maybe things are not that bad after all.

And I'm in love with Avril Lavigne's Girlfriend!
Or am I just in love with Avril Lavigne? Alhamdulillah.

Man Utd vs Bolton tonight!
Man Utd win? Alhamdulillah.

A Series of Unfortunate Events

Okay the last few days have been A Series of Unfortunate Events (sorry Lemony Snicket) for me.

First up, I lost my voice, and thus had to endure laughter and ridicule by my colleagues. Geez.
Then, I fell sick. Then, my phone started giving me problems, first by rebooting itself whenever I tried to type an sms, then the screen shone weirdly with a message saying 'Test Mode'. Subsequently, it became 'Contact Service', and finally, it inevitably shut off completely, and I couldn't even switch it on! Whatthefish. So I thought, 'What's the worst that could happen?', I went home, only to find that I didn't have a spare non-camera phone. So I borrowed my brother-in-law's Nokia 6610, and all was fine and dandy.

The next day, my OC came running up to me to tell me that I'd just been posted to Quebec Company. WHATTHE...! Here I was, laughing at Nabil for getting posted to Zulu Company, 4km inland next to the jungles, and now I'm gonna be his next-door-neighbour. To make things worse, my CSM said I'm gonna be a platoon sergeant in the new company. WTF!!! I'm one of the most outspoken specs against being a platoon sergeant, and now, I'm gonna be one. That's like a slap in the face uh. And to think I've only taken half-a-batch! I'm not ready for added responsibilities. I must be the most inexperienced PLT SGT ever. Oh well,JCC, here I come.

But nooo, things didn't just end there. As I alighted the ferry to go home the next day, I realized I left my bro-in-law's phone inside the sea vessel. So I quickly backtracked back onboard, asked the RP and boatmen if they'd seen a phone, but of course, they didn't, just as I expected. Sheesh. All those times I took great pains to return lost handphones and cameras, yet I've never been on the receiving end of such kindness. And it's my bro-in-law's phone!!!

As if things couldn't get any worse, I was so exhausted from lack of sleep throughout the week, that I fell asleep on the bus back home. Which would generally be ok, except for the fact that I missed my stop and had to walk back. KAUZ.

And and...when I reached home, settled down in front of the computer with a glass of plain water, I discovered a temut (semut) drowning in my drink. KAUZ KAUZ.

A Secret Place

There's a secret place I like to go
Everyone is there but their face don't show
If you get inside you can't get out
There's no coming back, I hear them shout
Welcome to my Hideaway, my Secret Place
How I arrived I can't explain
You're welcome to, if you want to stay
But everyone just runs away

Let me in... Get me out....
Can't do more than twist and shout
Lost my soul without a trace
Found it again in my secret place
In disgrace

I hide from those that try to find me
Scary things that's right behind me
I lost myself, I must confess
I can't explain how I got this mess

I just feel for some reason, that these words aptly describe my life pertaining to my relationships with other people swimmingly.

'There's a secret place I like to go...Everyone is there but their face don't show'
This 'place' is the Zone or shell I withdraw into somewhere in my mind,when I'm thinking of people who matter to me, yet because of circumstance or incidents, I don't matter to them anymore. That really hurts.

'If you get inside you can't get out...There's no coming back, I hear them shout'
Once I'm drawn into that part of my mind, the feeling just overwhelms me. It's like an addiction. A drug. You know the feeling? It's something that I can't explain. Not with words. And there's no coming back for a 2nd chance, or even a chance to make things up to the person(s) who you care(d) for...

'Welcome to my Hideaway, my Secret Place...How I arrived I can't explain'
I share with you my place of refuge...that Secret Place inside my head which records all the emotions concerning love in my life...I don't know how it came to be, but I guess that's one of God's mysteries...in times when I'm left alone and far from my loved ones, say training in the jungle in Taiwan, freezing from being caught in the thunderstorm, hungry from not having enough food and tired from pushing myself physically and mentally...without warning my mind will transport me into that Secret Place, and I'll feel a familiar pain...

'You're welcome to, if you want to stay...But everyone just runs away'
I wish that sometimes, the people that matter could step in my shoes for once and feel what I feel. That they would get transported into my Secret Place where I'll gladly welcome them. But if only they knew what I felt, they would be scared off by it...and just run away from it, leaving time to do the dirty work instead of just settling it in an amicable manner.

'Let me in... Get me out....Can't do more than twist and shout'
I desire to get into that Zone, if only to glimpse or re-live those moments with those persons who matter...yet, it is pure mental and emotional torture to go running through those moments in your mind and knowing that it's never gonna happen again...

'Lost my soul without a trace...Found it again in my secret place...In disgrace'
I've been guilty of some bad things in my life.Where I've forgotten myself completely and gotten involved in things I shouldn't be getting involved in.In short, I've lost my soul. In moments of love and emotion, adrenaline and testosterone pumps. I should have held a tight rein on it. In the end, I found myself...disgraced.

'I hide from those that try to find me...Scary things that's right behind me'
There are those, who up till this day, still have unfinished business with me. They try to find me and they rape my privacy, depriving me of my right to keep my counsel to myself. Although it would be nice if everything was in perfect black and white, sometimes things just take a shade of gray, and somethings should be left to be covered up by the passage of time...please don't pursue what is not meant to be.

'I lost myself, I must confess...I can't explain how I got this mess'
The wonder of relationships is that sometimes when I'm lonely,there's no one to keep me company. But when I'm not looking for it, multiple people come into my life, seeking to establish a union with me, getting me entangled in a web of false hopes and broken hearts. For both me and the multiple people.

Goodbye 1000 times goodbye
The thought never crossed my mind
That this would be my last goodbye
Let me put pennies on your eyes
And kiss your lips one last goodbye
My love 1000 times goodbye

Tpiderman!

Sometimes I wonder why children, young boys in particular, fantasize about being Superheroes. Is it a condition exclusive only to young boys? Or do little girls suffer (suffer?) from it too? Fantasize about becoming Barbie perhaps? Help me out here please. My puzzlement stems from observing my nephew Zulfikri's fantastic (yes, fantastic) obsession with Spiderman...or as he pronounces it, Tpiderman. The boy's obsessed with our friendly neighbourhood overgrown red-and-blue arachnid. And often he refers to Tpiderman BLACK (which I can only assume is Venom), Tpiderman BROWN, Tpiderman GREEN, Tpiderman WHITE, Tpiderman PINK (geez!)...God knows what all these are. He has a Spiderman towel, Spiderman suit, Spiderman bag, Spiderman underwear... and everything Spidey where you wouldn't normally want a spider! So what aroused this thought-provoking question you ask? Well, it all arises from the dialogue between Zulfikri and his grandad, my father, Mr. Zullkefle (that's Tok Ayah to him)...

Fikri: Tok Ayah pakaikan nie baju nie! (takes out SpideySuit from his drawer)
Tok Ayah: Eh Fikri takmo pakai tu, kiter masih nak pergi jalan², nak gi jalan mana bole pakai baju Spiderman!
Fikri: Pichi (Fikri...he pelat lah) nak pakai nie la Tok Ayah...Pichi (Fikri) nak pakai nie! Tpiderman trong(strong)!
Tok Ayah: Tak bole pakai tu la, tu Spiderman, Spiderman strong, nanti orang takut, nanti tak bole masok rumah orang!
Fikri: Tpiderman trong(strong), nanti Tpiderman bole tumbuk pintu nanti kiter bole matok (masok) !
Tok Ayah: *Lost for words*

Kids nowadays. Hero-worshipping the wusses.
Me, I was always RoboCop.
"I'm your friendly neighborhood Spider Man!" "Dead or alive, you're coming with me!"

Kids Say The Darndest Things

Kids really DO say the darndest things.

Scene: I was lying prone face-down on the sofa with my rascal of a nephew climbing all over my head and body while pinching and scratching me here, there, and everywhere.

Excerpt from our dialogue:

Me: Fikri takmo laaa, Uncle Ikam nak sleeppp...
Fikri: Uncle Ikam bangunnn, Uncle Ikam takleh tleep(sleep)...
Me: Fikri takmo cubit la, Uncle Ikam nak sleep, nanti Uncle Ikam nak gi work...
Fikri: Uncle Ikam nak gi work nak tembak orang jahat eh?
Me: A'ah...nak tembak orang jahat
Fikri: Uncle Ikam nak tembak orang jahat patal(pasal) tak mandi eh?
Me: Mppfft...(holding back laughter)

I swear he's the epitome of darn cuteness.

MEGADETH! MEGADETH! MEGADETH !!!

MEGADETH RIPPED INTO TOWN!!!

The pioneering founders of thrash metal FINALLY made their first-ever appearance in Singapore on Friday 261007 at Fort Canning Park, after approximately 20 years of existence, and boy did they rip! They did their reputation no harm and proved why they're still around after so many years after a headbanging show that pleased the crowd, and justified my belief that technically and musically they're streets ahead of arch-rivals METALLICA... it's worth taking an off-day and paying 120 bucks to get to watch Dave Mustaine & Gang... I thought that since the tour is called the United Abominations Tour of Duty in support of their latest effort, that they would be playing all-new songs...but my hunch was that since it's their first time in Singapore, surely they would play some of the old favourites at least, and I was proven right, with a setlist that included 'A Tout Le Monde', 'Hangar 18', 'Holy Wars...The Punishment Due', 'In My Darkest Hour', 'Mechanix', 'She-Wolf (Dave claimed its a bonus track for Singapore which those in Thailand and Indonesia didn't get!)', 'Skin O' My Teeth', 'Symphony of Destruction'(extended version!), 'Tornado of Souls', 'Trust'... and they even did a special medley for 'Holy Wars' and 'Mechanix', starting the song with 'Holy Wars', only to interrupt it mid-way to play the entire 'Mechanix' track, before seamlessly flowing through the remainder of 'Holy Wars'... so all together now, 1...2...3...

MEGADETH MEGADETH MEGADAVE!!!

DAVE F****N' MUSTAINE!THANK YOU MEGADETH

Beg Mal, my fellow Megadeth-head El Mano Cornuta!

JB Raya Pics

As promised~

Lack of Self-Awareness

Went out for another round of raya-ing with my maternal family, this time to JB. And boy! I would be kicking myself for not realising that I had such pretty 2nd cousins =D I definitely need to be more aware of my family members. To think that I could have missed it had I not swapped my duty today for next Sat. And NO Nabil, I'm not gonna intro you to any of them understand? haha. Not to mention the 2 absolutely-hot girls we drove past by that literally turned my bro's head and mine. Very nice! I like! The downside though, is that I had to endure the endless ribbing from literally everyone about my 17-year-old aunt. Every year without fail I'll hear of it. Now it seems everyone knows about it,even the new birds in the family. Whatthe...

These are some of the photos from last week's round of visits.Today's photos to be posted up soon.

Saturday 131007 1st Day


Sunday 141007 2nd Day

Wad quiz?

Your Five Variable Love Profile

Propensity for Monogamy: Your propensity for monogamy is high. You find it easy to be devoted and loyal to one person. And in return, you expect the same from who you love. Any sign of straying, and you'll end things. Experience Level: Your experience level is medium. You probably have had a couple significant loves. And you may have even had your heart broken. But you haven't really dated a wide variety of people. Dominance: Your dominance is medium. You tend to be the one with more power. You aren't a total control freak in relationships.. But of course you don't mind getting you way! Cynicism: Your cynicism is medium. You'd like to believe in true and everlasting love... But you've definitely been burned enough to know better. You're still an optimist, but you also are a realist. Independence: Your independence is medium. In relationships, you need both "me time" and "we time." You usually find it easy to be part of a couple. But occasionally you start to feel a little smothered.

The Five Variable Love Test

You Have A Type A- Personality

You are one of the most balanced people around Motivated and focused, you are good at getting what you want You rule at success, but success doesn't rule you. When it's playtime, you really know how to kick back Whether it's hanging out with friends or doing something you love! You live life to the fullest - incorporating the best of both worlds

Do You Have a Type A Personality?

Wikkid!!! That's bang on the money~

Hari Raya Day Deux (TWO/DUA/ITHNANI/ER/DOS)

Second Day Raya is as always, spent visiting my mom's side. Arguably the closer-knit group of the cousins I have on either side. And it was fun I tell you! FUN! This time around we had a convoy of 5 cars (My family's, My bro's, Kak Syai's, Pak Long's and a rented car) so u can well imagine the big group travelling, especially since 2 of them cars are MPVs. A debut Hari Raya appearance this time round for Abang Hisyam and Abang Herman, both of whom got hitched to my sis and Kak Syai respectively this year, so WELCOME TO THE FAMILY and most importantly, to Nek Pon's CuzzenHencemJambu group.

First up we visited Nek Engku's super elegant landed property (Cik Farid gave us bomb packets of check this...50 dollars EACH!), then subsequently, Tok Teh's house, Cik Usop's residence, Cik Eton's nest, Cik Ros's place, Cik Zain's apartment, Nek Anjang's dwelling and finally Cik Massba's masjid. As my family car's passengers consisted almost entirely of licensed drivers, we took turns driving to each house, tailing the other cars in a convoy.

It's great going to visit my relatives whom otherwise I almost never get to meet. I realize I have some really pretty 2nd cousins (^_^), while my immediate cousins are also growing up and maturing/blossoming into fine young men and women. Reading this, Farhanis? ahakz.

As usual, whenever the CuzzenHencemJambu group gets together we have crazy fun, and maturity goes out the window as the elder ones fool around just as childishly as the the younger 'uns. Throw in 5 young nephews ranging from a baby to toddlers, and you can quite imagine the havoc...and headache...we wreak. Muahahahaha!

And Kak Syai, I shalt tuntut ur promise of baking me (and ONLY me) more macaroons, no matter if its nt crunchy. Macaroons, I like =D

Pics to be posted up soon. Watch this space.

Di Pinggiran Aidilfitri

SELAMAT HARI RAYA ALL, AND MAAF ZAHIR & BATIN TO ALL WHOM I KNOW.

Alhamdulillah. Allah has granted me blessings of longevity such that once again I am able to complete Ramadhan and meet Syawal. May I get to meet many more Ramadhans and Syawals in my lifetime. Amin.

Raya is different this time around, with two new additions to the family; Sis' hubby Abang Hisyam and Zulfikri's younger brother, baby Zulhilmi. My family started our raya-ing rather late today, we left home for Pak Long's (Nenek resides there currently) at around 2+pm. But for some strange reason, it seems so did everybody else. My family was the first to reach there. After which, we left for Teban Gardens to visit Yayi, and we were abt 1-2 hrs later than we normally would have been there. As a result we visited very few houses, with visits to Nyayi Ketupat's house, Nyayi Abang-Ikmal-Tido-There's house, Yayi Potato Chips's house, and the traditional finale, Yayi Golf/Nyayi Rendang's house, for obvious reasons. The rendang feast. Oh I'm sorry if all these don't make much sense, I'm afraid it's a family joke that only my family and cousins would understand. Heh.

I don't know if I'm finally starting to look like an adult, or its the curse of the NS status once again, but Raya this time round isn't as errr...economically productive for me as in seasons past. Yes it's well shallow of me, I know, but everyone needs a financial boost of some sort every now and then don't they? Relatives come asking me in a casual manner what I'm doing nowadays (I suspect this is an old trick to find out whether I've started working yet), and when I answer I'm serving NS, they nod and talk as per normal. Like so:

Relative: So, which school are you studying in now?
Me: Urm, I'm in Tekong now actually.
Relative: Tekong? The 3 months BMT?
Me: Urm no. That period's over. I'm posted back there as a commander.
Relative: I see.

And that's that. Subsequently I didn't get duit raya! =(
Err hey man, NS isn't = working a full-time job.
Well, it IS a full-time job, but we aren't paid a salary, we're paid an allowance. And allowance is exactly what I got as a student! Sheesh. But hey, Hari Raya is all about celebrating victory over temptation, so I'm not complaining =) well, maybe not so much.

Saw eFinZ on TV on Danielle. Finally! I knew he's been acting quite abit, but it's still weird to see one of your bestest buddies appear on TV after all the time and things you've been through together, the adventures and err...misadventures. Called him up, had a little catch-up session, only to receive an sms frm Annisa as soon as I put down the phone :

"Ipin's on TV!!!"

Wow.My buddy's famous now.

Tomorrow is all about visiting relatives on my mom's side, just as today it was all my dad's. And so I leave u guys with one of my favourite Hari Raya songs, Dikir Temasek's "Di Pinggiran Aidilfitri"...

Pics to be posted up soon. Watch this space.

Mempertahankan Puasa

2 x Football matches were cancelled =(
Mon- vs Jaguar
Tue - vs Cougar
And to think I actually brought my boots in to camp!

What a waste of time, energy and effort.

Wow the fasting month has really been a challenge for me. So far,so good, my record is still clean, I haven't missed a single day's fasting yet. But there was one time, after speed training, we had a mini-race between the Specialists, Officers and recruits, a 4x400m sprint.

THAT nearly took me out. Being the last runner, I had to give my full burst to recover ground lost, and that took the wind out of me.I doubled over, head feeling tizzy, and stomach threatening to vomit out the contents of that morning's sahur. And it wasn't just me alone. My colleagues that took part all looked sick too. It doesn't help that 400m was never my event. I wonder how the recruits can take the training, yet still remain fasting...

Respect.

I HATE NS! 3 weekends in a row burnt cos of some NS-related duty or other. 2 weekends confinement, 1 COS duty last Sunday... and just when I thought I'm finally free to spend some time with my family (and and...u know), Godfreaking stufide new CSM of ours inserted me last-minute not just to do Guard duty, but to become Guard Commander this Sunday...mowthebucks!!! I had PLANS this weekend. PLANS. That's 4 weekends burnt in a row uh!

Anyhoo, I'm finally gettin some taste of soccer action later. Gonna be heading over to NTU to take part in a futsal tournament organized by NTUMS, along with 4 other Clan members. After which I have to rush all the way back home to pack my stuffs, ready to catch the 11pm ferry back to the island.Haiz. Wish me all the best luck!

Man Utd vs Wigan tonight!
Rip 'em up like wild dogs~...

Finally!

WOW. Finally, my 2-week confinement period is over O THANK U GOD. It's getting a little bit mendak/sian /monotonous to be inside Tekong 24/7.I'm so grateful to be back in the comforts of home. But still, I remind myself, "1 year 2 months to go Hikam..." ^^

Alot of things has happened this week, I don't even knw where to begin.
So this is what happened in a nutshell.

1st up, I finally received my permanent camp pass with my picture on it. But the picture of me in it was so pale, I look pasty white! O_O I'm sorry I can't post the pic, it's restricted =)
For the record, I was NEVER pasty and in fact, I'm tanned now k.

2nd up, I had an uneasy experience this week as I sent one of my recruits out to New Changi General Hospital for a referral by Pulau Tekong's Medical Officer (MO). My recruit had been checked by the doctor at the hospital, and we were just sitting around the waiting area while passing the time waiting for the next ferry timing to bring us back to camp, when suddenly, there was a loud commotion a few feet away from me, and I saw a middle-aged Chinese man stand up and in an aggressive posture and tone, spout vulgarities. His object of displeasure were three 'mats' or the equivalent of Malay Ah Bengs seated behind him. The mats also seemed to be in a confrontational mood. I was feeling nervous, and thinking "Oh Sheet. A fight is about to break out, there's no one else to maintain law and order...and I'm in army uniform! The public surely must be expecting me to do something! Oh sheet..." sez I. Thankfully, it turns out that there WAS a Police booth, and a police officer came along to defuse the tension. And the cause of the disagreement? As the story goes, them three mats were making a nuisance of themselves, sitting with their leg up against the chair in front in the typical mat way, and rocking the chair, which the middle-aged gentleman happened to be sitting in. Apparently, he asked them to stop behaving in such a manner, but the 3 mats, being mats, replied aggressively 'What?What?Not happy ah?". Attitude seh. Hence the anger. I don't blame the Chinese gentleman though. Sometimes the behaviour of Malay youths embarrasses me. And what's more, it's the middle of the Holy fasting month of Ramadhan! Astarghfirullahalazim.

3rd up,I did my good deed for the week. After a lecture at the main auditorium, I told my recruits to clear the litter in the surrounding area. After some time, a recruit sounded off to me, "Sergeant! Look what I've found!" and goodness golly gee. Guess what? It was a brand new Samsung digital camera! 6.0 megapixels, with the factory plastic still attached to the viewfinder.

WOW. What a black beauty. As I switched it on and browsed through the pictures, hoping to get a clue as to whom it belonged to, my eyes saw what looked like an African family starring in most of the pics. Slowly, it dawned on me... this African family must have been part of the new Singaporean citizens that I took on a tour of BMTC last week, and must have left the camera behind somehow...

As I pondered as to how I was going to return it, (obviously I'm not keeping it for myself...heh)
I browsed thru the pics again. And Voila! Therein lies the answer.A picture of a air-freight parcel that had an address on it. And so I tried my luck, as me and my brother drove off to East Meadows condominium at Tanah Merah and approached the guardhouse. The owner of the camera was pleased as punch ("Oooo camera!") that I had returned his missing valuable, and THAT lit up my day =)

And finally, I've at last handed over the birthday gift that I had been keeping with me to the intended recipient. Granted, it's been well over a week now since the birthday and it's well belated, but still, I was under confinement and this was the earliest opportunity I had to hand it over. And to think I skipped a trip to Johor with my family just so I can make time to meet up with the person, even if the person only could/wanted to meet for only 5mins, and even though we haven't met for months. I'd like to think that the person appreciated this little sacrifice, even though I didn't make it known to the said person. I hope YOU'RE happy with this little gift. I had specially put alot of thought into it, and I hope u realized the concept. *hint colour themed* Sorry no pics up for posting, as I don't really want anyone to know to whom the gift was meant for...

Birmingham vs Man Utd tonight! =)
The first Man Utd game I'm able to watch in a fortnight.

Trust.

Lost in a dream
Nothing is what it seems
Searching my head
For the words that you said
Tears filled my eyes
As we said our last goodbyes
The sad scene replays
Of you walking away

My body aches from mistakes
Betrayed by lust
We lied to each other so much
That in nothing we trust

Time and again
She repeats "Let's be friends"
I smile and say yes
Another truth bends,
I must confess

I try to let go, but I know
We'll never end till we're dust
We lied to each other again
But I wish I could trust

My body aches from mistakes
Betrayed by lust
We lied to each other so much
That in nothing we trust

God help me please, on my knees
Betrayed by lust
We lied to each other so much
Now there's nothing we trust

How could this be happening to me
I'm lying when I say, trust me
I can't believe this is true
Trust hurts
Why does trust equal suffering

Absolutely nothing we trust

The Journey So Far...

Yoohoo friends and colleagues, children of all ages, and especially ye luscious ladies of marriageable age!

It's been a while since I've last blogged, and for good (good?) reason: I'm under a 2-week confinement period =(

In case you people don't know what it means, it simply means that my new batch of recruits have just enlisted, and as they've been placed on a 2-week confinement,us poor commanders too, are subjected to the same barbaric treatment.Which verily, to use a prevalent lingo, is suck.
This week has been sorta a challenge for me, as I discover more about the background of my recruits and their problems. Also, my poor body is suffering trying to adapt to the fasting month while trying to sustain on an average of 2 hrs of sleep per night, thanks to nightly patrol duties and a super early sahur time of 4am. No fun =(

On a brighter note, I've fairly enjoyed doing certain duties, such as bringing the newly commissioned(commissioned?for want of a better word) Singapore citizens on a tour of BMTC, engaging myself in public speaking and interacting with them and also with parents of recruits. I like the challenge of having to think on my feet the responses to impromptu questions. Fun =)

In my first soccer game for the company, we lost 2-0, so no point touching on that one.

I'm currently at home now, on 50-50 off day. Tmr morning it's back to work, which predictably, is suck. But ohhh my. I spent an entire day outside, shopping around town, discovering areas I never even knew existed in Singapore. And to be able to spend buka with family...quality, quality time. However, something came up....

To You:
If you ever come across this blog, please know that I'll do all I can to help you. Just pour out your problems to me. I'm never too busy; if I am, I'll call u back. Don't ever give up ok? I have faith in you. Nothing lasts forever...neither will your problems. Insya'Allah.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY KAK HUSNA!

HaPpY 25tH BiRtHDaY kAK HuSnA!!!

k I felt silly typing it like that.

First up, today marked the end of my Commanders' Preparatory Course (CPC).
Meaning, theoretically by right I'm well prepared to take my section of 12-13 men.
But obviously, I go by left, 'cos I'm so totally NOT prepared to take on such responsibility.
And tmr my first batch of recruits are enlisting, meaning tonight is the last time I'm gonna be bookin out in like maybe 2 (TWO) weeks, and I have to catch the 0715 hrs FastCraft tmr to reach Tekong for an 0800hrs meeting. And enlistment begins at 01000hrs. And shucks.

Anw, back to my sis' birthday.
Yesterday, I stayed up late 'cos I wanted to msg her "Happy Birthday" at the stroke of midnite. This was how it went...

Me: Happy Birthday!!! Da tua bangka now...Gosh.Ur 1/4 of a century old...On ur way towards being makcik2...U go girl! =)

My dear sis replied the next day, and to quoth:

Sis: Hey u...thanks!! Mana ada makcik2, stil maintain young n cute tau!! Hehe... thank you aight! N take care over there!!

Errr...Oookay.

Me had planned all this while to ask Kak Muni to come up and present it to her on my behalf, cos me didn't know that me would be bookin' out today. So, after Terawih, Kak Muni paid a visit to present my birthday gift to my sis. And here goes nothing...

Making her way...

...to the Prize Presentation

Patience! It's a long video.

This made my day =)

SELAMAT BERPUASA

Selamat Berpuasa to all ye Muslims out there! I have to admit tat it came a little early for me, n I'm not really prepared, but I welcome Ramadhan with open arms, heart and mind. This is my first time experiencing the fasting month while serving NS, and I'm anticipating the challenges ahead. Of wakin up at 3+ am in the morning so as to reach the cookhouse at exactly 0400hrs. Of training recruits and myself with no food or water. Of keeping a lookout for my fellow Muslim recruits, striking a balance between pushing them to their limits, and yet not overdoing it to the extent they'll suffer. Observing and making the call whether to ask them to break fast for their own safety. Keeping my own patience in check when faced with slow, blur or stubborn recruits. O PLEASE GOD HELP ME.

I'm on a very very very short break today. Given night's off yesterday nite, took the 2200 hrs ferry back to mainland, and I have to be back by 1400hrs later. What a rush. And to think that I might even be confined to the island for 2 weeks due to the new batch of recruits =(

To all my friends who are facing the challenge of their promos/prelims/A-level examinations.
All the best, do ur best, and be the best. Don't be stressed. Allah will provide the rest. Amin.

PUASA, JANGAN TAK PUASA TAU!

Football Crazy

This is hilariously funny to me.

My OC, a well-known football-crazy maniac finally met us new Specialists for the first time. And this was how it went in his first contact with the four of us...

Captain: So u are all the new Specs?
All: Yessir!
(turning to Valentova) Captain: Do you play soccer?
Valentova: Yes sir
(turning to Hai Yin) Captain: Do you play soccer?
Hai Yin: A little bit sir
(turning to Krithin) Captain: Do you play soccer?
Krithin: No sir
(to Krithin & Hai Yin) Captain: Now the first duty I'm giving to the BOTH of you, is to train up your football skills. I'm going to put the two of you into the Falcon football team, and if my team lose, I will CHARGE the both of YOU.

*Krithin & Hai Yin look stunned*

Mppfff Hahaha! First time I ever met anyone being forced to play football.

TKH Matchday - The Infamous Jinxed Game 17

The infamous Game 17.

After numerous cancellations, it seems we've finally gotten ourselves back on track with a game all set to be played
Al Capitan had the Game set at Telok Kurau Sec @ 1500hrs on Sunday, 090907

Al Capitan work till 1600hrs
Al Capitan had his break at 1300hrs
Al Capitan received sms from organizer: Game cancelled!!! AArgh!!!

Al Capitan called Vice Capt...Informed him of the news. No game, so 5- aside to be played @East Coast
We reached Telok Kurau Sec.
Ref Tony called. 1 slot available with opponent @ 1700hrs at Braddell Sec.

Met up with the rest @ East Coast. No last-minute back-outs from the guys.
Game ON!!!!

@ Braddell Sec, 2 fields were played on.Both field jialat, only the 2nd one slightly better.

We took the lead, with Urs Truly scoring a header coming from the blindside of opposing defender, courtesy of a left-wing cross from Al Capitan. Opponent equalized just before half-time, and we were unlucky to concede a goal in the last 5 mins of the game.

GAME 17 IS TRULY JINXED.

TKH played well, but lost 2-1 due to lack of match fitness. We'll be back, after Hari Raya!!!

Waiting for the Game

Posture mesti mau betul

Matchday Team Line-up